It has been awhile since I posted anything, still trying to keep up an insane pace.  The last two weeks have been tough to stay on track.  Last weekend was Easter and holidays are always tough.  I am beginning to realise one of my biggest downfalls is wine.  I love red wine and really enjoyed a glass in the evening and on weekends usually included a bottle or two.  I had cut out all alcohol (mainly wine but occasionally beer) for the last month.  I missed it but was doing ok until of course the Easter weekend.  Saturday was a BBQ with friends and of course that meant some alcohol.  This is so dangerous when you are trying to stay on track.  Did you know that when you are drinking nothing has calories?  Yeah it is true!  If you eat a cookie or slice of pie, your brain says “eat, enjoy, this has no calories, it actually makes you lose weight, the fat will just fall off your hips!”  Well ok then if my brain is saying to eat then I had to eat right?  SIGH.  Alcohol is not my friend!  It is good but it is not my friend.

I am a bit in a panic this week because I auditioned for Dragons Den and we were chosen to shoot an episode.  We shoot April 26!  When the producer called I immediately thought of asking  her if she could give me a few months until I could lose 40lbs and have plastic surgery!  Ahhh! The camera adds 10lbs and another 10lbs on this body is just not flattering.  So after I called my doctor to see if he could wire my jaw shut and inquired about being chained to a tread mill 24/7, I resigned myself to the fact, I will just plod along and if I look like a moose pitching a dragon well I look like a moose…..SIGH

So back on track again realising once again, this is not an all or nothing.  I am going to mess up but as long as I get back to it, I will be ok.